For me, makeup has always been a form of self-expression and art, as well as my favorite creative outlet. I’ve even made a business out of it. But after a while, I began to think I needed it. At what point does it become a mask?
Through my exploration over the past year or so, I began to notice a change in my confidence. Makeup became a necessity for me. It acted as a safety blanket to cover my every insecurity, whether it related to my appearance or not. And although I loved it, I also began to hate it because my favorite art form was becoming a chore. I thought I needed it to be beautiful, to be accepted, to be worth something. Anything.
So, what happens when your favorite form of self-expression is also a way to hide?
I wasn’t going to let my talent and my passion become my enemy. So, I began writing. And writing. And talking. And writing some more. I still wore a full face every day, complete with a smile, whether I meant it or not. But over time, my new outlets opened my mind and gave me the answers I was looking for. I filled pages and pages until I came to terms with my insecurities and issues and learned to deal with them rather than hide behind my mask.
These days I don’t wear makeup every day, and it's really liberating. And I’m thrilled to be back in a place where makeup is a way for me to show who I am. I think that when you can accept who you are on the inside, and learn to love that person, it’s emulated in your outer appearance, with or without makeup.
The results of my little self-evaluation have been pretty surprising. I originally set out to be more comfortable in my own skin. What I didn’t expect, though, was to become more open and honest as a person. No one is okay every day. I’m certainly not. But once I stopped using makeup as a crutch, I stopped hiding. I’m no longer ashamed to be who I am, whoever that may be on any given day.
You can be your most authentic self with or without makeup. Nothing bad is going to happen if you go out into the world bare-faced. It was a hard lesson for me to learn, but it was definitely one worth learning. The way you look does not define your self worth. In fact, the two topics are completely unrelated.
So, take it from me, the person who loves makeup as much as someone possibly can. If you choose to wear it, make sure it’s because you want to, not because you feel you have to. You are beautiful the way you are, and you are enough.